Swrodsmaster - some IC thoughts
Nov. 25th, 2002 12:52 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chrisvenusHere are some thoughts I wanted to get down after a RP session today. It is partly to remind me of what I am thinking and partly to give the GM a heads up on what I am thinking and what I am planning on doing (since it may involve me leaving the rest of the party). It should be noted for the GM benefit that a) I am tired as I write it b) Taronus is tired as he thinks this c) things might be better in the morning. :)
Oh, and if the players and GM could correct anything that is factually wrong then that'd be great. Bung it in the comments and I'll change it in the main body when I read the comments. :)
Taronus lay in his bed, exhausted. Thoughts clogged up his head and demanded his attention before he would be allowed to get to sleep.
Why am I bothering? I came here to find my grandfather and my brother. I got on the boat with them because it was going in the right direction and it made my life so much easier. At some point I stopped doing what i wanted to do and started doing what they wanted to do. The trouble is they don't know what they want to do.
Brianna is a great girl but has no idea what she is meant to be achieving. Danaeus is right to keep asking her to work out what she wants and she never quite knows. Well, she knows she wants to make friends with people but that just doesn't seem possible here.
What's happened so far? Attacked by Lirrisorn before we even get to athory. Then drugged, kidnapped, attacked by lirrisorn again, assassination attempt, assassination attempt, and the more. And that's just what we've had no choice in. It makes me wonder why I bother? If I'd just hitched a ride on a merchant vessel I'd have had none of these problems.
Today just seems to have been the last straw. I guess it started maybe when Danaeus asked Brianna again what she wanted. Why she was here. It made me realise that I was no closer to where I wanted to be here. No sign of my grandfather and no sign of my brother. Not even a first clue to him but I pretty much expected that.
I suppose it got worse when we got a message from one of the duchess's servants. This was just after Brianna and I got back from lunch with Lord Yarrow. He was greatful for what I did for him last night which was nice. At least there is one person I think likes us in this land.
Roland had just suffered his latest assassination attempt (a crossbow shot followed by two men from a secret passage. He was lucky he had Heleth with him. I was about to heal him when Brianna told me that Lady Katerina needed "her healing mage" and so off I trot. A failed attempt to heal her left me unconscious for a while but with the knowledge that my first guess was wrong.
Brianna debated whether or not we should try and heal her or leave her to die. "it might not be the sensible political move" she says. Sometimes I really hate politics. Especially the sort they have here. At least in Lathany you don't have assassins sent after you for telling somebody you didn't enjoy the meal or whatever.
I was thinking about trying to heal her again. We had, thanks to brianna making some effort, found out that some time magic was used by an infinity mage to perpetuate the poison in her blood stream. I thought that knowing this I may be able to help her more but then realised I probably couldn't. I know nothing about infinity magic but as I thoguht about it I remembered Polanrel, the infinity mage we ahd met in the kings land who said he would be in the city for the festival.
I suggested him to brianna as somebody who might be able to heal her and she seemed unsure. She had finally granted that it was my choice to try to heal the duchess but I pointed out that Polanrel helping was going to be ascribed to her, even if through me. What did she think...
She ummed and ahed some more and basically made no kind of a decision apart from apparently that if I didnj't make the decision for her she would leave the Duchess to die her slow and painful death. Finally I decided I'd had enough and attempted to contact him telepathically. Unfortunately I was quite angry by that time and I really wasn't able to concentrate particularly. Fortunately at that point Brianna, who I had been trying to teach telepathy to, managed to make a brief contact with him and determine that he was in a bar in the city.
I grabbed my boots and headed out to look for him bar by bar. Heleth followed and I heard Brianna behind me talking to some guards, trying to send them off. Found polanrel suprisingly quickly. Bumped into Heleth on the way back and then got back to the palace as Brianna was heading out, I assume to look too. Polanrel managed to do what was necessary to cure the DUchess but it took a lot out of him and he retired to his quarters.
About 10 minutes later Roland get another premonitition that something is wrong and we all head off to his quarters and get there about 30 seconds before an invisible assassin. That'll be the 4th one we have seen today and add that to the four we saw yesterday and that makes far too many assassins.
I think all in all I am angry for many reasons. Firstly because I have done nothing I wanted to do in Athory. Secondly because people are considering not curing a nasty disease somebody has because it is not politically correct. Thirdly because of all the attempts on my friends life. And lastly because my presence is endangering my friends. As brianna said to me earlier people will start to think that if I am nearby then no assassination attempt will succeed.
Evidence would seem to back them up. Lord yarrow took a crossbow bolt to the middle of the chest and I managed to save him. Lady Katarina was hit by a poisoned crossbow bolt enchanted by powerful infinity magics and she was saved to. Not directly by me this time but that doesn't always matter.
As I see it there are two ways to get rid of me if they want to assassinate somebody. Kill me first or kill my supposed mistress, brianna. So because I have saved a couple of people's lives Brianna is going to be added to a hit list somewhere.
If I left tomorrow then I could start looking properly for my family here. I could avoid all of the political intrigue and the stupid things it seems to do to people's morals. And I could make sure that nobody considers me a threat to their assassination attempts. Or at least if they do they will only attack me and not Brianna.
On the other hand it won't necessarily stop the people attempting to kill Lord Roland. Neither will I be helping Leonides particularly if I am off on my own. I may be able to do something but nothing that I couldn't do better whilst with them. Maybe we just need to get out of this place. The assassins that are plaguing us seem to be centred here and if we travelled elsewhere then it is possible my reputation would not proceed me.
But if we all went elsewhere then it would still be the politics and would still not be my grandfather or my brother. Maybe I should just spend a week or two on a quick tour of athory attempting to find my grandfather. I had hoped he would be in this city but it may be that he couldn't make it or has already left. He has dined with the nobility before though and if I ask around I may be able to get information to find out where he is.
I think in the morning I will start out by looking for my grandfather. Once I have found him or at least some signs of him then I will think about resuming my travels with the others. Depending on where their path takes them and where my path takes me.
If anything happened to them while I was away from them I'd be shattered. But currently I am fed up of following them around and doing nothing that I want to do. I want to find Gerald. I want to find Emeril. And then I want a holiday.
Oh, and if the players and GM could correct anything that is factually wrong then that'd be great. Bung it in the comments and I'll change it in the main body when I read the comments. :)
Taronus lay in his bed, exhausted. Thoughts clogged up his head and demanded his attention before he would be allowed to get to sleep.
Why am I bothering? I came here to find my grandfather and my brother. I got on the boat with them because it was going in the right direction and it made my life so much easier. At some point I stopped doing what i wanted to do and started doing what they wanted to do. The trouble is they don't know what they want to do.
Brianna is a great girl but has no idea what she is meant to be achieving. Danaeus is right to keep asking her to work out what she wants and she never quite knows. Well, she knows she wants to make friends with people but that just doesn't seem possible here.
What's happened so far? Attacked by Lirrisorn before we even get to athory. Then drugged, kidnapped, attacked by lirrisorn again, assassination attempt, assassination attempt, and the more. And that's just what we've had no choice in. It makes me wonder why I bother? If I'd just hitched a ride on a merchant vessel I'd have had none of these problems.
Today just seems to have been the last straw. I guess it started maybe when Danaeus asked Brianna again what she wanted. Why she was here. It made me realise that I was no closer to where I wanted to be here. No sign of my grandfather and no sign of my brother. Not even a first clue to him but I pretty much expected that.
I suppose it got worse when we got a message from one of the duchess's servants. This was just after Brianna and I got back from lunch with Lord Yarrow. He was greatful for what I did for him last night which was nice. At least there is one person I think likes us in this land.
Roland had just suffered his latest assassination attempt (a crossbow shot followed by two men from a secret passage. He was lucky he had Heleth with him. I was about to heal him when Brianna told me that Lady Katerina needed "her healing mage" and so off I trot. A failed attempt to heal her left me unconscious for a while but with the knowledge that my first guess was wrong.
Brianna debated whether or not we should try and heal her or leave her to die. "it might not be the sensible political move" she says. Sometimes I really hate politics. Especially the sort they have here. At least in Lathany you don't have assassins sent after you for telling somebody you didn't enjoy the meal or whatever.
I was thinking about trying to heal her again. We had, thanks to brianna making some effort, found out that some time magic was used by an infinity mage to perpetuate the poison in her blood stream. I thought that knowing this I may be able to help her more but then realised I probably couldn't. I know nothing about infinity magic but as I thoguht about it I remembered Polanrel, the infinity mage we ahd met in the kings land who said he would be in the city for the festival.
I suggested him to brianna as somebody who might be able to heal her and she seemed unsure. She had finally granted that it was my choice to try to heal the duchess but I pointed out that Polanrel helping was going to be ascribed to her, even if through me. What did she think...
She ummed and ahed some more and basically made no kind of a decision apart from apparently that if I didnj't make the decision for her she would leave the Duchess to die her slow and painful death. Finally I decided I'd had enough and attempted to contact him telepathically. Unfortunately I was quite angry by that time and I really wasn't able to concentrate particularly. Fortunately at that point Brianna, who I had been trying to teach telepathy to, managed to make a brief contact with him and determine that he was in a bar in the city.
I grabbed my boots and headed out to look for him bar by bar. Heleth followed and I heard Brianna behind me talking to some guards, trying to send them off. Found polanrel suprisingly quickly. Bumped into Heleth on the way back and then got back to the palace as Brianna was heading out, I assume to look too. Polanrel managed to do what was necessary to cure the DUchess but it took a lot out of him and he retired to his quarters.
About 10 minutes later Roland get another premonitition that something is wrong and we all head off to his quarters and get there about 30 seconds before an invisible assassin. That'll be the 4th one we have seen today and add that to the four we saw yesterday and that makes far too many assassins.
I think all in all I am angry for many reasons. Firstly because I have done nothing I wanted to do in Athory. Secondly because people are considering not curing a nasty disease somebody has because it is not politically correct. Thirdly because of all the attempts on my friends life. And lastly because my presence is endangering my friends. As brianna said to me earlier people will start to think that if I am nearby then no assassination attempt will succeed.
Evidence would seem to back them up. Lord yarrow took a crossbow bolt to the middle of the chest and I managed to save him. Lady Katarina was hit by a poisoned crossbow bolt enchanted by powerful infinity magics and she was saved to. Not directly by me this time but that doesn't always matter.
As I see it there are two ways to get rid of me if they want to assassinate somebody. Kill me first or kill my supposed mistress, brianna. So because I have saved a couple of people's lives Brianna is going to be added to a hit list somewhere.
If I left tomorrow then I could start looking properly for my family here. I could avoid all of the political intrigue and the stupid things it seems to do to people's morals. And I could make sure that nobody considers me a threat to their assassination attempts. Or at least if they do they will only attack me and not Brianna.
On the other hand it won't necessarily stop the people attempting to kill Lord Roland. Neither will I be helping Leonides particularly if I am off on my own. I may be able to do something but nothing that I couldn't do better whilst with them. Maybe we just need to get out of this place. The assassins that are plaguing us seem to be centred here and if we travelled elsewhere then it is possible my reputation would not proceed me.
But if we all went elsewhere then it would still be the politics and would still not be my grandfather or my brother. Maybe I should just spend a week or two on a quick tour of athory attempting to find my grandfather. I had hoped he would be in this city but it may be that he couldn't make it or has already left. He has dined with the nobility before though and if I ask around I may be able to get information to find out where he is.
I think in the morning I will start out by looking for my grandfather. Once I have found him or at least some signs of him then I will think about resuming my travels with the others. Depending on where their path takes them and where my path takes me.
If anything happened to them while I was away from them I'd be shattered. But currently I am fed up of following them around and doing nothing that I want to do. I want to find Gerald. I want to find Emeril. And then I want a holiday.
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Yup
Date: 2002-11-25 02:26 am (UTC)But ironically, it's Danaeus who's now coming around to another point of view - that the expedition may have a chance to be a real catalyst for change in Athory... or at least some parts of it. The question is how to achieve this without getting us all killed first.
It was interesting to watch Roland's reaction to Bryanna's political views shifting closer to his own. I can't help wondering what's going to happen to our aura of neutrality if we attend the Court of the Keeper and the Duke Mage Leonides returns whilst we are there ! Maybe we could hide under the tables ?
Re: Yup
Date: 2002-11-25 02:50 am (UTC)However, whilst we are neutral, we are sworn to help Leonides. And he's of our land and the one noble we really can trust. If he returns when we're in the Snake, I at least will be be asking "how high?" to Leonides's commands.
Uh oh !
Date: 2002-11-25 03:40 am (UTC)But you've got to feel sorry for Bryanna - still a teenager and being required to make moral decisions which would make a philosopher hesitant !
Re: Uh oh !
Date: 2002-11-25 03:52 am (UTC)I was thinking about this, and if Elias really was Arakasi, then in some ways Bryanna now is playing a (less politically astute and broadsword weilding) Mara...
New web pages up
Date: 2002-11-25 05:44 am (UTC)However, I thought that these factors were outweighed by the need for a useful reference to the Athory nobility.