It must be monday
Apr. 29th, 2002 10:47 am![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chrisvenusUrggh... I really don't want to be here. I want to be doing something more interesting with my time. I want my job to be a programming job and not whatever you would call the stuff I am doing now. Currently I have written up a test plan for the front end of the website which I had no actual part in writing and don't expect I fully understand. Now I am writing up notes on a meeting I had discussing another part of my job that bores me to tears (reporting). On the plus side there might be some nice programmy stuff coming out of it. :)
I am hoping this is just monday morning-itis or that when this project is over that it will improve or something. I am starting to really dislike being at work though which I don't think is being good for my overall mental health. Vaguely tempting to try to get hold of whatever stuff I can to learn how to do what they do at Tao and then re-apply in three months time and be able to program assembly languages and understand clearly everything they do. Do I have the time to do that at the moment though?
Weekend has been quite fun though. Much playing on my new X-box toy. Halo is very cool as is Dead or Alive 3. I also have project gotham racing though I have not played that too much so far.
Cam game last night was really nice. Ended up with a lot of people in tears since it was the memorial for Leonie and Rhian. It was a very strange feeling roleplaying that last night. In some ways I didn't feel I was roleplaying that well because I put very little effort into it. On the other hand I think that is largely because it all seemed to be very natural. Speaking at the end as I said my piece about the two of them the tears were completely natural and the cracking voice was not something I was trying to do and I don;t think I could have done if I made the effort. It just seems that Leonie was so alive in my mind that it didn't take much to put that image into my mind and remind me of her death. That and the fact that I am an absolute sucker for the noble sacrificing death for love and all that kind of thing. :)
Tonight and this week will probably be fairly anti-social. Partly because I am tired, partly because I have an X-box and partly because I don't think I am going to be that in the mood to see people. I should be going to shalazar tomorrow evening but I think I might just bail since I am not that enthused at the moment. Might be nice just to see people though. I guess I'll see how tired I am and what time I get away from work. :)
I am hoping this is just monday morning-itis or that when this project is over that it will improve or something. I am starting to really dislike being at work though which I don't think is being good for my overall mental health. Vaguely tempting to try to get hold of whatever stuff I can to learn how to do what they do at Tao and then re-apply in three months time and be able to program assembly languages and understand clearly everything they do. Do I have the time to do that at the moment though?
Weekend has been quite fun though. Much playing on my new X-box toy. Halo is very cool as is Dead or Alive 3. I also have project gotham racing though I have not played that too much so far.
Cam game last night was really nice. Ended up with a lot of people in tears since it was the memorial for Leonie and Rhian. It was a very strange feeling roleplaying that last night. In some ways I didn't feel I was roleplaying that well because I put very little effort into it. On the other hand I think that is largely because it all seemed to be very natural. Speaking at the end as I said my piece about the two of them the tears were completely natural and the cracking voice was not something I was trying to do and I don;t think I could have done if I made the effort. It just seems that Leonie was so alive in my mind that it didn't take much to put that image into my mind and remind me of her death. That and the fact that I am an absolute sucker for the noble sacrificing death for love and all that kind of thing. :)
Tonight and this week will probably be fairly anti-social. Partly because I am tired, partly because I have an X-box and partly because I don't think I am going to be that in the mood to see people. I should be going to shalazar tomorrow evening but I think I might just bail since I am not that enthused at the moment. Might be nice just to see people though. I guess I'll see how tired I am and what time I get away from work. :)