Better in some ways

Well, I still feel a bit gorggy in the head but I think this is now entirely work and sleep related so I'm no longer worried. Unfortunately I still have a slight melancholy hanging over me that I have now for over a week.

I've come to the conclusion of why this is.

I haven't let myself go enough recently.

I've been to parties and remained mainly sober. The drunkest I got recently was a bit of wine at Tommy's (and that wasn't very drunk at all).

So, my plan is to make the weekend a very drunken one. I can't really afford to but hell, I really don't care sometimes. :)

So, my plan currently is to head down to friend's birthday in london and get very very drunk. Fall over in leicester square or something and then on saturday wonder why I thought it was a good idea to get that drunk. Then probably go see some people before hitting another party in the evening and getting drunk again.

In all honesty I doubt the plan will go anything like this since there are many stages to wuss out of there and I doubt I'll want to get very drunk two nights running. And knowing me I'll have done something so stupid on the first of the nights that I will want to find a hole to hide in by the second but that sort of thing is almost part of the plan.

The thing that worries me is when I decide that alcohol is a good solution to my problems. This is why I think I will eventually come to the conclusion that it is a very bad plan. But whatever. This is a now post. Not a post on what I will think in three days time.